Feb. 23:
My beautiful daughter is 2 today. I love the opportunity to celebrate her life. I am so thankful for her life. It’s amazing to experience love the way I experience love with her. Most things in life we choose to love, but I don’t feel that way with her. I am compelled to love her. I can’t recall a time I chose to love her, it just always was. My love for her has changed, especially once she was born, but it has always been present. One of my fears of being a mom was that I would resent taking care of her. I was afraid I would resent getting up in the middle of the night to feed her or I would resent not getting to do things I wanted to do because I had to take care of her…kind of like it feels when as kids we have to watch our siblings instead of going out with friends or doing what we want to do. I’ve not ever felt that way with her. I’ve been frustrated when I’ve had to change plans, I’ve been extremely tired and would rather sleep than feed her, I’ve needed a break from her, but the love and joy and fulfillment she brought to my life doesn’t change. It’s my hope that each day I will cherish time with her and not take her for granted. She is such a gift – truly amazing. She’s my amazing Grace… in so many different ways.
The morning after my trip, she climbed into bed with me and Tom and sat between us. We rolled over to face her and said our good mornings. She settled herself between us so she could see our faces, and then she patted me on the leg and said “Mommy, I glad yo heuh… in de bed”, then she turned and patted Tom and said, “Daddy, I glad yo heuh… in de bed.” These are the moments of joy I couldn’t have imagined.
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That's really sweet. It's stuff like that that almost makes me want to have kids before I'm 30.
I've found the cliche to be true. Parenting is the hardest and most rewarding thing I've ever done. I have insecurities and doubts about my skills as a parent, so I cherish all the more times like these. They keep me going. They are blessings and I want to acknowledge them and live and enjoy them. You have a lot to look forward to, in addition to the challenges.
Yeah, unfortunately, I seem to always think of the challenges when I think about having kids. It's nice to hear about the rewards, too.
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