Gollum

I suppose I could explain my bad mood now that I am better dealing with it. It's one of those things where you know how you got where you are, but don't know how to get out of it. You know what you did wrong, but don't know how to fix it and maybe don't want to fix it. Fixing it or repairing it might mean admitting things I don't want to admit to myself about myself. I do know how to start...an apology (which really bites because it gets in the way of my self-entitled pride) and being genuine with my motives and intentions and fears and insecurities. Even the ones I might want to vehemently deny. Trying to get to the root of my behavior can be so difficult. I imagine if I looked at myself in the mirror, I would look a lot like Gollum.